20 more days

i should be studying for finals, but i can't concentrate because i'll be done with junior year in one week. and in one week, i'll be in home sweet home california. and a week after that, i'll be back in chicago preparing for my summer in bolivia. and a week after that, i'll be in cochabamba, bolivia.

i'll be in cochabamba for about eight weeks, from june 24 to august 18.

i honestly can't believe i'm going.
i don't know why i'm going.

but in the midst of busyness, worryness, work, decisions,
this is the door that i believe God opened very widely for me.
so i happily stepped in, trusting that every step i take is in the Lord.
because if i remain in Him, He will remain in me.
and apart from Him, i can do nothing.

i'm the biggest scared-y cat, for the lack of a better word.
which is why i suck at being the good journalist i want to be.
which is why i still get annoyingly scared in the dark and of being alone.

but i believe wholeheartedly that God is answering my prayers of wanting and knowing the perfect love that casts all fears.

so He is taking me away from every possible thing i find security in, so that i can only turn to Him. no family, no friends, no church, no computer, no korean food...

i'm excited for this time of refinement...
and i just ask King Jesus...that i may not burn in the fire as if i'm dying...but really burn with passion for your Name...as a real living sacrifice...that is so fragrant to everyone you allow me to meet, and above all, to You.

i don't know how often i'll be able to write in this.
i don't know how often i'll be able to spend time at the internet cafes there.
but i hope this will be a space where i can remember the little moments that stick out to me during my stay in bolivia. and that when i look back to this blog...and this post...i can say once again...that God is good..that God is faithful...He never ever fails me...and i am forever grateful.

so this first post...just helped me realize that i'm really..going to bolivia.
really scared...really excited...
please keep me in your prayers...your prayers strengthen me...hold me up.

i'll try my best to be loyal to this blog to keep you..myself..updated.

thanks for reading...haha

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